When things break, we normally get upset because we either didn't mean to do it or it is sentimental and it hurts us. I accidentally break things all the time.
One of my memories I think of often is when I was 6, yes I remember things that long ago, my daddy got me one of those punch balls. I was so excited , he blew it up for me and told me " Be careful and don't hit it on ceiling it will pop". I told him I would be very careful, So I went into my room and started punching it, well maybe 2 minutes in, it hit the ceiling and guess what it does.....It POPS!!! I was so upset for two reasons, number 1 I had so much fun with it I
Well as I have gotten older and I've grown deeper into God's love, I've learned breaking isn't really a bad thing, actually in God its the best thing. When we are broken that's when God can use us the most. Sometimes it's not fun being broken, but in the end we always learn something amazing from it.
I've recently been broken, AGAIN, and like always it's been an interesting learning experience. It makes me dig deep into the word more, not because I'm questioning but because I know He wants me to learn, so I ask him. The other morning I read my 3 devotions and everyone was on humility and poor in spirit, and I asked Him what He wanted me to learn and do with this, and like He has shown me in the last 5 weeks, " Be Still and Know" I'm grateful for the waiting and having to be still, no its not easy, it comes with prayer, but always in my time of brokenness, I hear Him clearer, and see the little things He wants me to see. It makes me aware of the things I still need to change, and it makes me happy He loves me this much to break me and for me to be used by Him.
Something I realized this week, is that the last two times I've been broken and feel like I'm in the valley and stuck, I came out on top quicker then normal, Like this week, dealing with something that is my heart desires and its just not Gods timing, but it still hurts, the next day after prayer, sharing whats going on with a sweet dear friend, and my husband , and seeking Him I felt like I was on the mountain top. In the past it took longer to get on top again, but this time it didn't because I am recognizing what God wants me to do, and I'm seeking Him and asking what He wants me to learn from this. AND the biggest one of all, I just prayed for me not to get bitter, and for people to see Jesus through me. I had to be humble and to admit how I felt and that my heart hurts but I want Jesus's way, even if I have to Be Still a lot longer then I want to.
So don't be discouraged next time you are broken, sit down, open your bible and ask Him to teach you what He wants you to learn. And don't be stubborn, admit what you need to change and bask in His love.
"Humble yourself before the Lord , and He will lift you up"
James 4:10
