Sometimes Its Hard to Live by Faith

 Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like can anything else happen, or you feel defeated in any way ? Well some days I get that way, but I have to bounce back and realize God allows things to happen to get us closer to Him.
  

Today's devotion is on Trusting God, now I have said plenty times , "Oh I trust Him on this or I know and believe God has this".  But can we say that for EVERYTHING. It's says in Isaiah 26:3-4 " You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always , for the Lord God is the eternal Rock!"

With everything that I do, I must trust him. It's hard being five hrs away from family, and living faith based but know God supplies everything we need when we need is the best way to be. There are things we do without but knowing He gives us the things we need in His timing is priceless. It makes up for what we don't have. And when you think about it, it's not ours any way. It's all God's what ever we have, is His. So we shouldn't just keep things for ourselves we should give it to help others when he tells us. And that goes back to trusting Him, if he gives us something and then tells us to give it that person we must obey, and trust He will supply back to us when we need it. 

There are plenty of times we have had bills to pay, and the money hasn't been here. Then always right before its due, we get the money to pay them.  Sometimes it comes from people we don't even know. But that's all He wants from us is to trust Him and know He will take care of us. We don't even worry about it because we have seen Him supply. We pray and trust that it will be there in His timing and always it is   

He just wants us to give Him complete control and allow Him to work in our lives. The only way to do that is to seek Him daily and have that close relationship with him. And we will hear everything that He wants us to do. I couldn't imagine living any where else, and doing anything else. Kentucky has taught me a lot and Harlan county is my home. It's ok that we live 1 hr and 30 min from any big area, serving God is worth it all and knowing He is using me is the best. God wants to use all of us we just have to open our hearts and fully trust Him! 

Psalms 91:1-2 " He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty, I will say of The Lord  He is my refuge and my fortress , my God , in whom I trust"! 

God almost killed ME.................

As I sit and think about the last three years and how God has used me and actually healed me I'm just so thankful. Maybe you also are struggling with a health issue that you don't understand. Read On ........Maybe I can help.

 I'm a missionary in Eastern KY and my husband Chad and I have been here for 7 years. We were both called by God to KY and move from White House TN , at the time we were just friends. Chad moved up in September 2006 and we started dating while I was still In Tn. We prayed for God's will and that Christmas he asked me to marry him. I was so excited because through prayer and listening to God I knew that's the one he created me to be with. We got married in October 2007 and I moved up and we started our ministry together. It was a huge adjustment , we go to both having jobs, I was a hairstylist to living Faith-based, where we just depend on God to give us what He wants us to have when He knows we need it.

Through the next few years I start getting sick and have no idea what is going on. I have mood swings, I gained a lot of weight , I was having migraines and constantly sick. Until one day when God wanted it to be revealed what was going on. In Feb 2010 I got so sick that I couldn't stay out of the bathroom. I kept migraines and I could feel the pressure in my head. We went to GA the first of march for a GIC missionary conference and then it all happened. My eye crossed and I started to see double I was so sick, there was a dr there, he got me so meds and the rest of the week was hard. We had to share what God was doing in our lives and our ministry which is building a youth camp. I had to be obedient and still believe He had me and was going to get me through it. So we got home I saw a dr and he took ct scans and everything was fine but told me to see a ophthalmologist  .  In 3 seconds after her looked in my eye he saw it, a pseudo-tumor in my cerebral brain! I have never heard that and I instantly heard tumor and that was it, I was scared. But he went on telling me my body thinks I have a brain tumor and that's why I have been so sick. I saw this dr four months prior to get glasses and he didn't see it, so that's how quick it developed. When i got home that day, I went out on to our porch and cried out to God I was angry because I moved 5 hrs away from family gave it all up for His work and now I'm sick. He instantly said " that's not your body but mine, Galatians 2:20 says I no longer live but you live in me, and your mine" WOW, He gave me that so I would have the peace that everything is going to be ok! And I felt the peace the whole time. I went months not hearing from Him but felt Him and I knew He was teaching me things. I learned a lot about myself, a lot of things I had to change! It was a God thing, you will see that shortly! 

So I started going to UK hospital to get spinal tabs and seeing a neuro dr twice a month for 10 months. The pressure got so bad they kept warning me I could wake up blind. My eye went back to normal 6 weeks later and they kept me on high dosages of meds. I was loosing eyesight and I couldn't go anywhere I was so sick. Through the next few months they talked to me about the next steps and how I should prepare myself. In sept 2010, I had to have eye surgery because I was loosing my eyesight and they wanted to stop it. It was very painful and....... It didn't work. So the next few months they kept saying you need to get a shunt put in, and I was so scared of that. The last few months I knew it was all God and I had peace but not about the shunt. In Nov they said its time to get the shunt my pressure is bad and you need to come in two weeks to do it. Well that would be in Dec

And I love Christmas so I said I'll pray about it. We had so many people praying for us over us these last few months, and we were all seeking Gods will.
 

The exact week I was suppose to go and get the shunt my daddy called and said there is a chiropractor in our home town and he wants to look at me before I do the surgery. Well I've never been to a chiropractor and I thought he cant help me. Chad and I prayed and I made an appt for dec 20 when we went in for Christmas.   Chad and I prayed before I went in and as we walked in the door they were playing Christian music, I instantly had peace. When the drs at UK hospital told me to get the shunt I didn't have peace at all, but with this I did. He prayed over us and gave it to God before he started working on me . He worked on me for 5 hrs and I went one hr with no migraine ! God is amazing. So I saw him the two weeks we when in TN for Christmas and for the next two months. We would go in every two weeks, I was getting better no migraines, I came off all my meds, and the chiropractor prescribed natural supplements and God was healing me! But there was still something going on so my chiropractor found another chiropractor closer to us and he specialized in women's health. 

I met with this new chiropractor August 2011 and he did a muscle test on me and found out I'm allergic to gluten, I have Celiacs.  I started seeing him once a week every week for 6 weeks then every other week for 12 weeks. Now I am up to every 3 months. I've been gluten free for 2 years and I feel like my old self again. I've lost 62 pounds no more headaches and I'm healed! So if God didn't allow me to get sick with the pseudo-tumor I would have never found out I'm allergic to gluten. And that's what caused the pseudo-tumor, I've had celiac my whole life and didn't know it. I was diagnosed at 17 with IBS but drs didn't know much about gluten then. This was Gods plan all along. He had to take me through it all to get me out on the other side and now I'm so much healthy. 

Sometimes we don't understand why things happen, but God always knows the end results and He knows what's best for us. I'm totally blessed and would do it all over again. I've learned so much about the healthy way to eat we are going to incorporate that into our youth camps. I've grown closer to God, and I've seen Him work in ways I can't even explain! He is the great Healer!